I'm tired of loosing

It's a months since the last time I'm blogging.
Hell, now my houskeeper will going back home. It still tommorow anyway, but I'm feelin' scared of loneliness. That soon began when she's gone. I'm tired of loosing everyone around me. I hate this feeling, I hate left all alone by myself. The sadness I couldn't bear a cross. The truth that I couldn't avoid.
I don't want to live alone, I hate loneliness even sometimes I need it. But not like this, not this way.
Please don't live me this way!!!!!!!!!!!!!
don't go.